One who finds their identity in God. Follower of Jesus.

The first Tampa Bay Intervarsity Asian Movement meet. We call ourselves Hotpot.

The first Tampa Bay Intervarsity Asian Movement meet. We call ourselves Hotpot.

Behind closed doors, I am nothing. Just an idiot who is addicted to the internet.

I desire that beyond the closed doors, i find healing through being with Jesus instead.

i admit i get really nervous when you call me and talk to me. I’m sorry I can’t be the man that you want and need in your life. I’m figuring out how to be happy on my own without being/pursuing a relationship. I really just want to let you know my intentions of not pursuing a relationship.

And thank you for the pan de sal :) I tend to keep my distance away from you because I don’t want to give the wrong idea to you :/ But I appreciate you and am thankful for you =]

I haven’t been happy in a long time. The idea of death keeps on coming up in my mind.The idea that I will die soon, that everyone around me will eventually die, and there will be a point in my life where everyone I know is dead.

I am not worried for death. I accept it coming. I don’t know my worth, I’m trying to find it in school but it just leads to brokenness. I push Jesus away, but I know I need him the most right now. I feel that my soul is wasting away. 

I need to focus on me before my relationships with others. I’m lost, but this is my battle. This time around, I won’t mask my problems by jumping into other relationships and wrecking havoc in other people’s lives. I give off the impression that my life is filled with just nursing school…but in reality I’m just broken. 

There is hope for me. I know it. 

parallel with the joy and happiness, i have a very angry side.

I went to a bipolars anonymous meeting…

the man said it took him years to get out of bed

another women said that her beating social anxiety meant going to walmart at 3am

whatever i do in life, i hope my heart breaks for those who live in isolation and hopelessness. 

I will never understand the viewpoint of

People who go to church and advocate for strip clubs

Those who follow Jesus but are disgusted by the homeless

The idea of going to church just so it can be said that you went to church…

isn’t it useless if we go and no transformation around us and in the world takes place? 

It’s easy to get lost with getting a nice job, buying all the nice things i want, being a leaf in the wind. My life isn’t passed on through materialistic items. It will be passed through those who i disciple and who carry my genes. 

What I build up today will be part the legacy i leave behind when I die. 


left deflect, right hand hammers to face and catches punch, take space of opponent, causing them to fall. 

smaller surface area, more concentrated it is

I couldn’t do Kt anymore. I was so stiff when learning a new move.

On the positive side, my double rolling was still too good!